Tuesday, October 28, 2014

It's starting already...

The anniversary of Dads death is coming up quickly… Nov 26th to be specific.
Im starting to feel it already… The sadness is creeping in slowly, little by little, like a thick fog.
Do I just take it in? Feel the sadness? Shed some tears??
Or do I go with the norm..hold it in?  be strong? try to forget??

I don't feel like this about my mom this far away. A few days before maybe. but not a month.
Maybe because its the first year. or the way he died. I haven't been to the grave yet. I don't think I want to go, but then I think I should.

My plan is to get a tattoo for him on the anniversary . I don't know if it will make me feel better, but at least I will have physical pain to go along with the pain in my heart.

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